My sister and I are a perfect combination of my mom and dad but it is clear who is more like the other.
While I tend to favor the look of my mom, I have the attitude and behavior of my dad. My sister looks more like my dad, but her demeanor is all my mom. She is calm, wise, thoughtful, and nurturing. I am for lack of a better word a spaz, quick to speak, a little more selfish, and not nearly as patient. If you knew my mom - you know that my sister is just like her. If you know my dad, you see where I get my fire from! I also think birth order has a lot to do with it... I'm just sayin'
As I get older, more and more I go to my sister for help and guidance. She is such a woman of faith and the closest thing to a mom that I have. She always takes careful consideration before responding to my questions, often telling me that she is going to "have to pray about it first". My sister is nearly 15 years older than me... when we were young, it was a bigger deal. But as we get older, the gap kind of closes more and more. When I lost my mom, I was only 28. I was not a mom yet, and really was still finding my independence. I now know why God gave me a sister that was so much older... he knew that I was going to need that later. She is such a great reference with everything dealing with kids, friends, psycho friends, parents, psycho parents, and so on...
When I first told her that I was moving back to Atlanta, she was happy to have us back in the South, but worried about me going back to Atlanta. She worried that I would get caught up with old friends who really don't have my best interests at heart. She hates that we love living in the city and how fast paced it is. She really would like to see me settle down in the suburbs and be the leader of the PTA... please.
But we are different. She said that they had never moved because she did it once 15 years ago and it was so awful that she swore that she would never do it again! I can relate to that... moving SUCKS. It is one thing to move across town, it is another to move across the country... and to do it twice in 2 years!
The move to Iowa was pretty easy... but this return has almost killed me.
Some days I wake up and don't even want to get out of bed. I know the minute I put my feet on the floor, it is going to be a long day. Letting the dog out every couple hours, managing Bailey in this crazy city, house hunting, working with lenders, Christian being out of the country, wondering why the hell our house in Iowa isn't selling... ahhhh!
I think it has also been hard because my expectations may have been a little off when I moved back. I suppose it isn't realistic to think that you can leave for two years and return like you never left :(
Either way, we love being back. This city is such a big part of my life! This was the first city I lived in as an actual adult... that paid my own bills!! Bailey was born here... and the Braves are here. I mean, it doesn't get better than that!
I just think that I may be suffering from a little situational depression... not that I am not happy, but because I think stress is fogging my lenses. One day our house in Iowa will sell, we won't be paying two mortgages, I will have a yard for Otto, and Bailey will have all her favorite things and a room... with walls... and a door :) Then I will be able to fully grasp being back home in the South!
At the end of the day - I think I secretly do love it though. Stress that is. If I didn't, I wouldn't do it to myself all the time! I would be like my sister, and be content in the same place. But I am a free spirit... I just go wherever the wind takes me and I kind of like the excitement. My friends tell me that if they were me, they would be in a mental institution and that they think I am great at handling all these things... I suppose it is true :)
I love following Joyce Meyer on Facebook. She has the best little one-liners... these spoke to me...
The more you hurry, the more mistakes you make.
Slow down, breathe and learn to be led by God, not driven by impatience.
God loves you too much to leave you in a mess.
He has a plan for you that far exceeds anything you may recognize.
He has a plan for you that far exceeds anything you may recognize.
Despite all of that... we are still having a great time! Here are some "moments" from our last couple weeks :)
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| My best friend Megan's son Manning - presh |
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| Megan and I destroyed these chocolates... it was like eating art... I am not sure if we felt more guilty because we ate a bunch of chocolate, or because they were so pretty??? |
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| I missed this place while in Iowa! I go here everyday now... |
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| Jazz Festival at Piedmont Park |
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| Family Selfie |
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| this girl. LOVE her! |
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| she is DEFINITELY a cabana girl... no getting wet for her... |
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| went to visit Christian's parents while he is in Brazil... his dad is great on the guitar :) |
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| Leaving Winston-Salem |
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| Charlotte to see my family and mooch off my sister and her pool |
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| Me, Sadie - my sister's youngest, and B |
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| My sister's son has 2 hammocks hanging from his ceiling... why? I have no idea... I don't have boys... Bailey loved it though! |
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| Playing on the trampoline with Sadie... and yes we bought a slip n' slide (in the background) |
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| Bailey woke up every morning and went strait outside to jump... she's a trip! |
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| Breakfast with mom :) |
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| First swim lesson!!! |
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| She was TERRIFIED! |
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| Brunch :) |
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| Since Christian is in Rio - we went to have lunch and go see Rio 2 So fun! |
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| Had to hit up Little Five Points... Bailey found some shoes she liked... |
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| While house hunting I saw Ms. Lawrence from RHOA! Leaving church of all places... |
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| Me and one of my besties Ashleigh... we are not normal and we like it that way... |
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| This is cheering me up! World Cup 2014! |
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| Got bored at the hair salon last night and took some online quizzes... apparently I need to move to Brazil and become a writer :) But not anytime soon... I am staying put for a while!!!! xoxo |
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